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WHY I DIDN'T SAY NO, BY SARA PIRKLE


Even as his kisses swept
            the back of my neck,
                        even as he pinned me in place
 
with his leg wrenched over
            ​my thigh, even as he squeezed
                        my breasts like ripe fruit
 
and expelled a shuddering sigh,
            I said nothing. Still as a pillow,
                        I gazed at the digital clock’s
 
glowing face with a glazed-over
            thought: nothing lasts forever,
                        this too shall pass. Maybe
 
some part of me understood it, or
            the idea of it, a man so crazed
                        by my angles and curves
 
he couldn’t help himself.
            Maybe I deserved it, crawling
                        into his cologne-soaked sheets
 
after a dusty evening of tequila.
            Maybe in that drunk-dark hour,
                        I saw myself in his loneliness.
 
Then, he rolled away
            like a boulder blocking a tomb.
                        It was over. I didn’t hate him.
 
In the cobalt blue swell of morning,
            listening to his shallow breath,
                        I knew why I didn’t say no.
 
I’d made similar mistakes,
            wanting what I shouldn’t have.
                        Desire once capsized the principles
 
lugging me through life. So later,
            when he apologized, his voice shaking
                        like a willow in a storm,
 
I accepted his words the way
            a river accepts rain, evaporated
                        ​elements returning to their making.




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Sara Pirkle is the author of The Disappearing Act, which won the 2016 Adrienne Bond Award for Poetry. Her poems have been published in Rattle, Reed, Entropy, TAB, The Raintown Review, Emrys, and Atticus Review, among others.  Sara has received writing fellowships from The Anderson Center, I-Park Foundation, and The Hambidge Center for Creative Arts and Sciences. She is the Assistant Director of Creative Writing at The University of Alabama, where she also hosts the Pure Products Reading & Lecture Series.
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